I wanted to make a promise to myself that for one day, there would be no criticism, no taking back anything, and no second guessing.
I wanted to live my life exactly the way I wanted to live it.
In the back of my mind, the same old doubts emerged, the same old thoughts, the same old nagging voice, telling me that I wasn't good enough, I wasn't bold enough.
I wasn't strong enough.
Then, I began to realize that my life is not a battle to be 'won.' My life is a journey to be taken, to be enjoyed, to be savored, to be enjoyed.
I stopped. I napped. I didn't fight. I released.
I breathed in and felt my chest expand, my heart quicken, and my promises vanish. I owe nothing to anyone. I owe nothing to myself.
I walk a path that leads me home - and it doesn't matter which way I turn.
"Forged in Flame: Creating a Reclaiming Beltane Ritual" - Creating Ritual issue of Witches and Pagans