catch and release

the grip of all of this
is strong 
and practiced

it knows the lines of my hands
and the softness of my fatigue
as i try to hold on
and let go
at the same time

my moment to moment 
does not remember
its last choice
it can not remember
what happens 
when that happens
or that happens

so i hold onto moments
i capture them as proof of all that I know
before i let them go
and forget again

this trusting heart
this trusting heart.