question

I think all initiations
start with a question

maybe you didn't ask it out loud
maybe you didn't even realize you were asking it
maybe you asked it before you could
hold it back

and then it's there
and you're there
and there's no place to step
but in

My own initiation started when I didn't want it to start.
My own plunge into mystery began
when I was least prepared.

Or so I thought.

But I'd been asking the questions
and listening for answers
for much longer than I realized.

I was ready for all of the things
I wasn't ready for.

But I only knew because 
I stepped forward
one trembling
step 

at a time.
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